Never Forever

 “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.” A person can be defined by the experience and challenges he or she goes through, and the way they overcome it. In my case, there are two major challenges that I have faced, those obstacles shaped me to the person I am today, tomorrow and the rest of my life. Those incidents hurt me a lot, but they made me the person I’m proud to be now.

When I was in Saudi Arabia, I had a best friend named Khadra. We were friends since I was in kindergarten until I turned 10 years old. We used to go to school together, play in the fields together and watch cartoons together. One day, we had a Math exam next morning; I didn’t understand most of the topics so I called Khadra to come to my house to study with me. She also wanted me to come to her house too, but it was after 530pm and I was not allowed to leave the house after 5pm. My father convinced her father to drive her to my house, and later my father would drive her back to her house. I was very happy that she was coming, so I sat outside waiting for her and my parents were sitting with me. The road in front of our house was rough and only big trucks can pass it, so her father dropped her at the end of the road. I saw her coming towards us, and then I asked my parents if I can go and meet her there and they refused. I sat back and waited until she comes. Then I saw a big lorry coming and it was incredibly fast. In a blink of an eye the lorry hit Khadra. I saw all of what happened and how it happened and I couldn’t stop any of it. Everybody started running towards Khadra, but I couldn’t move I was frozen. The last thing that I remember was, I was standing and looking at her dead body, until my dad took me back to my room and locked me there. I still recall that incident like it was yesterday. That incident turned my life upside down forever. From that day until now I am afraid to call anybody a best friend, and it’s really difficult for me to let people to be close to my heart. I always push people that I love away for me when they become very close to my heart, not because I hate them. I just don’t want to be hurt again by someone who is very close to me. Every day I regret that I asked her to come over to my house, but I know I shouldn’t, regret won’t bring her back to me. Right now, I have many great friends that I love and respect, but I am still afraid to lose them like I have lost Khadra.  “When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”

      Now, this is the second incident that changed my entire life. When I was 11 years old my parents decided to move all of us to Somaliland. My father told us that he will come to Somaliland after one month not later than that. Then after being one month in Somaliland we waited for his return eagerly but he never showed up. I used to get my hopes high whenever he used to say that he will come back soon, but he never showed up. Now, if he tells me that there is a big chance that he might come back tomorrow, I wouldn’t be optimistic of his return. This experience proved to me, that I am became mature and not naive anymore.  It also made me not to have my hopes high for anything, because of it I am a pessimistic person I always look at the negative side of each story in my life. I have learned not to depend on others and to let faith take me to all the mountain peaks there are to climb.

                As life passes us day by day, we realize that nothing really lasts forever. Everything has an end, even happy stories.  I have become a stronger person because of these two events. They have had a positive and a negative impact on my life. I loved and lost but because I’ve managed to look pass it; I have become a person that I am proud to say. Nothing lasts forever, that’s a big lesson I learned from my wild life.